I'm in a weird place right now.
I'm in a snit.
I looked up the definition of snit. A state of agitation. Yep...pretty close to what I'm feeling.
I can't seem to settle down. My mind wanders. I'm not inspired to do much and the things I do do, I force myself to do cause they need doing. (How's THAT for an interesting sentence?)
I'm restless, indecisive and annoyed. But I'm not really in a bad mood. I'm not. But I am looking for distraction...for humor, for fun, for inspiration.
I usually get this way in January.
I know what it is.
It's the darkness of winter.
I miss my garden.
I miss the green things.
I miss the little changes that happen to the plants as they grow.
I miss the smells.
I'm getting extra hours at work this month which is actually a relief to my sanity as well as to my pocket book.
The other day, a co-worker asked how my weekend went and I told her "It was too long...I'm glad to be back to work." She looked at me like I was crazy. "Who actually WANTS to work?"
She has a point. While I do enjoy my work, I firmly believe I'd be one of the first people to leave it behind in pursuit of other things if I had the financial wherewith all to do it.
Which makes me think that I'd probably be a bored rich person.
Seriously. That would be my luck.
That even though I could have anything I asked for (financially speaking) I'd still be in a snit during the dark season.
Unless I could run away from winter. Run away from the dark days. Head to the Southern Hemisphere where it's heading into Summer right now.
Hmmm. A girl can always dream can't she?
Oh, Sweetie, you would not survive in Minnie-soda! ;o}
ReplyDeleteYup, I hear you. I've had a bit of that lately myself. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel when you mention missing your plants, garden and even the smells at this time of year. I think a lot of it for me is missing the light. I have wondered if one of those special light boxes would help me. I looked them up on line, and mostly they seemed to expensive, especially with no guarantee that one would help. Today I went out in the cold, windy-though sunny weather, and spent some time covering my roses and ferns with more leaves. Even though I was out in the sun, it just wasn't the same as other seasons. I have also spent a lot of time pestering and plucking dead leaves from my geraniums that I brought inside to winter.
ReplyDeleteAt least we are on the upward swing of daylight hours now, and we are more than halfway through January. Take care.
Susie D.