Saturday, June 10, 2017

Where You Find It

The more often we see the things around us - even the beautiful and wonderful things - the more they become invisible to us.
That is why we often take for granted the beauty of this world: the flowers, the trees, the birds, the clouds - even those we love.
Because we see things so often, we see them less and less.
Joseph B. Wirthlin

Hm.  Where do I begin?

First off...Everything is OK.

It's a long story and if I suppose if we were face to face and we were chatting, I would be happy to tell you all the details.

But just the thought of putting everything down into words seems so fatiguing to me.

I am tired.

Long story short then.

Ginny, had been failing for about a month.  We spoke of putting her down but SM felt that as long as we could help her then we should.  

Her back legs needed support, which we were happy to give, but she had developed an on and off case of diarrhea that we fought for about 2 weeks.

We did the best we could but accidents happen and SM was cleaning up after her while I was at work one day.

He saw a toothpick on the floor.  
He picked it up, dropped it and then stepped on it.

Right under his second toe.

He shrugged it off but after a few days the foot became infected.
Oral antibiotics and the Dr lanced it to drain it.

Still no improvement after a week and then during an urgent care visit on Memorial Day, the Dr looked at SM's foot and then looked at me and I said "ER?".  


SM was hospitalized for an abscessed foot.
For 5 days.
IV antibiotics every 8 hours and talk of amputating his toe.

I spent the night at the hospital the night before his surgery because SM was CLEARLY upset about the thought of loosing his toe.

That morning as we got him ready for surgery, Debbie (my good friend and neighbor who watches our dogs for us when we are gone) called and said that Ginny had collapsed.  Deb tried to get her up and even asked her husband to come over and help but it just wasn't happening.

I couldn't leave SM.
I couldn't let Ginny suffer.

So I called my Vet and they made a house-call to euthanize Ginny at about the same time that SM went in for surgery.

Talk about irony.  
They both went to sleep at the same time.

Before SM went in for his procedure, the surgeon stopped in to talk and unwrapped his foot one last time to look at it.  

Surprise!  SM's foot looked so much better!  We all felt that the IV antibiotics had done an incredible job with the infection.

So SM, the surgeon and I discussed the option of debridement first and if the surgeon didn't like what he saw when he got in there, to just go ahead and take the toe.

And SM woke up from his anesthesia with all his piggies still attached.

It's been 10 days since his surgery and we both feel we are heading in the right direction.  SM is diabetic and we have been cautioned that the healing process is slow and can take up to a month.  

Things can still go sideways, but we are optimistic.

I walked out to the garden this morning.  

This weed filled, overgrown mess of a garden and stood there and watched the bees feasting on the pollen filled flowers.

Beauty is where you find it, my friends.
Even when it's a mess.


  1. What a dilemma you faced when you were with your husband, facing surgery, at the same time your Ginny collapsed. Healing of all kinds--physical and grieving--will take time in your household, won't it?

  2. Well, shoot. I'm so glad SM did not lose anything and I am so sorry about your loss of Ginny. Sounds like you have an excellent neighbor (and vet). It's all in the timing, isn't it? Sending healing thoughts your way, kiddo.

  3. Wow, so much to deal with at one time. So sorry for your loss. Sending you and SM healing.

  4. I'm so glad SM is improving. Hope he fully recovers without further incident. I'm so sorry for the loss of Ginny. You did the right thing. Your field of cosmos are glorious, to my way of thinking. Just keep enjoying them.

  5. Oh my gosh, what you've been going through. (Is it any wonder you're tired??) You did the right thing for Ginny as it sounds as though she was suffering. If we had our choice, we'd have our pets live forever. Second choice would be that they would go peacefully in their sleep at a ripe old age after going for a long walk one day. Unfortunately, it makes it very hard for us humans in that it doesn't usually happen that way.

    Such a happenstance for SM! Being diabetic I'm sure complicates things to a great degree. But with your excellent care and love, even though it may take some time, I know he'll get through this and be fine. With all ten toes intact!

    Find a way to take care of yourself, dear girl. And don't give a second thought to the garden being out of control. You know next year it will be different and just look at all those gorgeous blooms you have to look at! Sending hugs to you both.

  6. well i am indeed impressed with the level of information on this site.i believe that it will go a long way to help persons with a wrong orientation about life to see things on a different perspective.

  7. Your field of cosmos are glorious, to my way of thinking. Just keep enjoying them.


  8. so happy I found you
    will be back
    years of like you
    and now ancient
    and down scaling :(

  9. Thinking of you and missing your posts. Hope all is well with you and SM. Hugs from across the miles.

  10. I second Mama Pea. I hope everything went well but I miss your posts too.

  11. Hope all is well with you and yours. We miss reading your posts.