It was nice enough yesterday to sit outside on our Southern-facing back porch and enjoy some sunshine on our faces. SM had the TV on but that never stops us from having conversation about life, thoughts and (ugh) feelings.
"I feel like I'm becoming a dinosaur." I said.
"How so?" SM asked with a confused expression on his face.
Poor man. He's been married to me for 34yrs and knows that strange things pop out of my mouth with alarming frequency.
"You know, with work. How I see the world. Interacting with the world in general."
"I guess I mean my chosen career path. Would I encourage someone younger to make the same choice I did 30yrs ago?"
I was flailing around trying to put into words my insecurity about jumping back into the job pool after nearly a year of being unemployed. I suppose I would feel the same way about trying to learn how to date again after all these years.
The world has changed since I was a puppy and now that I'm outside looking in, I'm not feeling like joining the party again.
It's tedious. It's underappreciated.
Ugh!
I'd rather "retire" than jump back in.
I came across an interesting article on BBC that sort of highlights my feelings about being a dinosaur.
The Computers Rejecting Your Job Application
Ugh.
Welcome, pal, to the official Dinosaur Club. There is SO MUCH about life "out there" (I don't function well in our modern society and am happy at home, can you tell?) that seems totally false and very, very far away from common sense, sane living and what truly matters to human beings. Truth to tell, it's hard not to become negative, but I'm gonna keep trying. (You may want to attribute this grumpy comment to our current outside temperature of -19° with a wind chill factor of 42° below zero. Nope. Not kidding.) Okay, back to not becoming negative. ;o)
ReplyDeleteWhy do something you're not entirely passionate about? Maybe this is the time for you to explore something else. In my late 50's, I discovered what I should have been doing all along. I can't believe folks pay me to do it, because I would probably do it for free.
ReplyDeleteConsider all of the possibilities for you! You have so much to offer!
Gosh, but I'm so glad I am "retired." I would be in the same boat as you. Of course, it has been an extremely unusual year!
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